Healing isn’t about fixing, it’s about remembering
These past two years have been a metamorphosis.
A cocooning, a dying and rebirthing, a sacred unraveling of all the layers I built from survival, lack, and fear.
It’s what I call my embodiment portal, the space where I’ve cried, screamed, purged, and laid to rest every mask and identity that no longer belongs. To embody something is to live it. And I’ve been learning to live my truth in real time.
This remembering process began back in college. I was raised in a strict Christian household, taught that anyone who believed differently was wrong. But as a sociology major, everything cracked wide open. I studied human behavior, relationships, institutions, and spirituality across cultures, and I realized there isn’t one “right” path to God or truth.
There are infinite ones.
As I peeled back the programming, I began asking deeper questions:
Why do I move the way I move in this world?
Where did those beliefs come from?
What experiences shaped my perception?
Our brains hold onto pain and trauma more than joy, not because we’re broken, but because our biology is wired to protect us. But trauma isn’t just the “big stuff.” It’s every moment you felt unsafe, unseen, too much, not enough. It’s all the times you learned to shrink.
That’s when I began the journey of healing, of figuring out how to stop reacting from wounds and start creating from truth.
Life will always leave breadcrumbs, but you have to slow down enough to notice them.
We’re all born worthy.
We are not our minds.
We are not our wounds.
We are infinite souls, here to remember.
And that remembering comes with stretching, with tests, with letting the old version of you fight like hell to stay until she no longer can. That’s what I’ve been moving through these past few months.
It hasn’t all been love and light. There have been moments of confusion, sadness, spirals, and breakdowns. But even in those raw spaces, I found God, I found myself, and I remembered; healing is not about becoming someone else, it’s about remembering who I’ve always been underneath the programming.
Reflection Questions for You:
1. What disempowering beliefs do I carry about myself, others, or the world; and where did those beliefs come from?
Take a moment to notice the stories you tell yourself.
Do they sound like fear, shame, or self-doubt?
Are they beliefs you inherited from childhood, culture, or past experiences?
2. Rewrite each disempowering belief into an empowering one.
Transform the story.
For every belief that limits you, write its opposite; a belief that uplifts, expands, or liberates you.
Example:
Old belief: “I have to work hard to be worthy.”
New belief: “I am inherently worthy, even when I rest.”
3. Choose one empowering belief from your list and create one action step that enforces it this week.
Make it real through a small aligned action.
Ask yourself: “How can I live this belief through my choices, habits, or conversations?”
Example:
If your empowering belief is “I am worthy of ease,”
→ your action step might be “Take one full evening off without guilt to rest and recharge.”
Thank you for holding space for my remembering and for walking your own at the same time. I’ll be sending these reflections weekly, some brand new, some from past seasons, all reminders that you are not alone on this journey.
All the love + All the hugs,
Saniah
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